Random Thoughts!

Most people don’t know me well enough to see through my words and my silence.

Not complaining, I am glad they don’t. I would hate it if they saw through me when I am disappointed because of something somebody said. It would be like a nightmare come true, if somebody could ever read me like an open book. There are things, like my doubts, my most honest of opinions, which I keep to myself(under normal circumstances i.e. unless I am aroused! :P)

It is a dream for most people to have that one someone in their life who can do that. As of  me, I am still not trusting enough, still not brave enough to let somebody into my life and be so close. So, I am not surprised that I haven’t found him yet.

(This post is turning out to be more melancholy than I wanted it to. Read on, anyway.)

So, because there is no way anybody will ever know this any other way, I am going to make a confession here.

For some reason, the most defining moments of life have been hearing of a friend's success, watching him/her smile about something that happened to him/her, irrespective of the fact that the incident was related to me or not. Just read a friend's blog where he had described his success. He has no idea, but he just made my day..!! He does it consciously, usually, but today he has no idea.

The most magical of moments I have experienced in my life have not been related to my success. They have had more to do with people’s smiles than anything else. When everyone else is happy, I am happy. A friend is happy, I am happy.

But people don’t realize it that when I am silently smiling with everyone else, I am enjoying the moment more than anybody in the room. Silence is usually an expression that highly under-rated. A smile is an underdog when it is compared to a laugh. I am led to believe that, when I find that someone who knows me, my smile will win, as others laugh.

I have weird ways of expressing myself, and what I have just written isn’t a rule either. It varies. As of today, I am smiling at a friend’s success and am going to sleep with a smile on my lips. What better way to end a day than that? It may mean nothing to anyone, but expressing myself by writing makes my calm and happy.

I would put my pen down here for tonight with a wish in the void, that may everybody around me be happy, making me even happier.

Good night friends!